Wednesday, November 5, 2008


Yes WE can !!!!
Thank you America!!! for proving our system can and DOES still work!!!


Saturday, September 20, 2008

Please tell me this week from absolute HELL is over.

It has been a very very long week. Have been working my ass off on the plan of correction for a restorative citation because of a dissatisfied ex employee and not feeling very well on top of it.

Monday: Last day for plan of correction to be completely done and ready for resurvey by state. Checking and double checking everything I have been working on. I was bending down to pick up a pack of paper for the copier and felt a pop in the left side of my lower back. NOT GOOD! The herniations and problems with my back and hip have always just been on the right. This time I did make out an incident report at work that I did it there. I can't get it to chill out no matter what I do and of course not allowed any pain pills except Tylenol 3 and then only 2 a day.

Tuesday: State not here yet time to breath. Everything is done above and beyond requirements. Of course something has to go wrong. Murphy's law right? Of course mid day I got into it with an LPN at work because she out and out lied trying to get me into trouble for something she told aides to do and another (her buddy) got in my face and tried to tell me what my job was. Wrong move on the wrong day and the little mouse that I usually am turned into a lion. They were both damned lucky I didn't knock them on their collective asses.

Wednesday: Still no state. I was still fuming about the LPN's mouths and decided I was going to look in the paper for another job (on the computer at work because I refuse to pay for the rag). Didn't find any but was horrified to find the obituary of an old friends daughter. When our kids were little we were always together. Her kids called me mom and my kids called her mom. We were all inseparable. She was only 29. What could possibly happen to a healthy 29yo?

Thursday: State Still not here. Thank God cause I couldn't do anything but be weepy. Look at me cross eyed and I was in tears. Finally in the afternoon I got up the courage to ask my DON to take a vacation day for Friday so that I could go to Jen's visitation and funeral. I shouldn't have to ask for something I have earned ; but believe me it takes courage to ask her for anything she is a total bitch from hell. I told her that if state should happen to show to call me and I would be right there. State never shows on a Fridayso I should be safe to be off. She said ok probably cause you could tell I had been crying. Got home and then stayed up late looking at old picture albums and crying. Maybe not very smart but was reaching out trying to find a way to cope.

Friday: Had alarm set for 9:30. Plenty of time for me to get shower, dressed and ready. Visitation was at 11:00 and funeral at 1:00. 8:30 my phone rings. Guess what state just walked in the door. (Murphy's law again.) Threw my clothes on and literally went 80 all the way to work. Clocked in 9:00. Thank God I took a shower last night. When I got there DON said that that the woman had said she planned to be gone by noon. Went in and gave her all my tracking etc for proof of correction and gave them to her. So just a matter of time for approval and I figured I could still make it before the funeral . I hated that they were there but truthfully if she took longer maybe I could deny in my mind that there was a need to go to a funeral. 11:30 she's done and we are back in compliance. For the first time since Sue was the DON she told me I did a good job. Truthfully I about fell over. I put things away in my office and ran out the door to get home and change and go.

Man I really really don't want to go. When I got there I had myself convinced she had been in a car accident. Found friends there I hadn't seen in years. Took me a while but asked one of them what had happened. I almost fell when they told me she had committed suicide. This little girl was always the happiest sweetheart. That wouldn't even be conceivable in her personality. She had 2 little girls the youngest only a year old. Post partum depression? They said she had a fight with her husband earlier in the day that evening she tucked her girls into bed went downstairs and hung herself. I know a suicidal person is not really accountable for what they have done. It's a downward spiral that they can't get out of; but man does it hurt for those of us who are still here. My best friend committed suicide and I still blame myself. I should have known. We had a psychic connection between us like no other. I still miss him. I know how much it hurt me then and how much it hurts me now with Jen so I can't even imagine what her poor mother must be feeling. Please if you ever think that someone around you might be capable of that please get them help.

I have a couple autoimmune diseases; crohn's, Fibro and MS and none of them do well with stress. So I knew it was just a matter of time till one of them were pissed off enough to cause trouble. Part of what the MS does to me is gives me vertigo. I felt the vertigo coming yesterday and should have been more careful but hindsight is 20/20. I got up to go to the bathroom during the night last night and when I did my whole world spun and I fell. I don't remember what happened after that. When I fell I hit my forehead on the cedar chest at the end of the bed and now I have a goose egg on my forehead the size of a baseball and am probably going to have a black eye where I hit my cheekbone. I buggered up my shoulder. The vertigo is back and staying a while I'm afraid; so please tell me this week from absolute HELL is over with.

Sorry guys don't mean to whine but had to tell someone or explode.

Kittie

Monday, September 8, 2008

More Republican Bullshit

Problem Solved?
We have an assignment for you. Just last week, The Dallas Morning News interviewed Sen. John McCain’s healthcare advisor and co-author of his health plan, John Goodman. Here's a clip from the article:
Mr. Goodman, who helped craft Sen. John McCain's health care policy, said anyone with access to an emergency room effectively has insurance, albeit the government acts as the payer of last resort. (Hospital emergency rooms by law cannot turn away a patient in need of immediate care.)
"So I have a solution. And it will cost not one thin dime," Mr. Goodman said. "The next president of the United States should sign an executive order requiring the Census Bureau to cease and desist from describing any American – even illegal aliens – as uninsured. Instead, the bureau should categorize people according to the likely source of payment should they need care.
"So, there you have it. Voila! Problem solved."
The Huffington Post, the top news blog on the Internet, has picked up on this story and has provided a substantial rebuttal. But there is one voice that’s entirely lacking in this debate: the caregiver perspective.
Lab technicians, psychologists, EMTs, nurses and others—what do you think about Goodman’s proposal? How can you relate your experiences as a healthcare professional to this crackpot solution? Remember, as caregivers, we’re the experts here.


I received this in my email today from a nursing alliance that I belong to. I know people hate Doctors and emergency rooms. Believe it or not we hate them too. (a lot of docs do too.)The medical community's management is all big business. (Well obviously they don't want ER's used as "insurance) but they are as political and corrupt as the people who are running this contry at this time. What they don't tell you is that they only have to give out enough medical care to rapay grants etc from government. Yes the ermergency rooms are required to treat anyone regardless of ability to pay. That's called the Hill Burton act. What he isn't taking into account is that the hospitals can and will transfer anyone that is "stable" to another hospital if they have fulfilled their repayment of this act. It doesn't take a whole lot to fulfill their obligation if they are a hospital with high traffic. They also don't tell you that in order for the bill to be paid IF that hospital still has an obligation at all, the person has to be so below the poverty level that it is almost impossible to be helped by the act, not to mention that the hospital will sue your ass as soon as you say you can't pay. It used to be you could pay 5 a month and they couldn't do anything. Not anymore they like all big business, they will require you to pay whatever amount they want a month in order for them not to take you to court.

The Republicans and admitedly some Democrats don't want you all to know what it's really like. They don't want you to know that the nurses are being worked to the point of exhaustion and that they are being stretched so thin that the nurses are working as aides, housekeeping, lab assistants etc. So while you are in the hospital the nurses you have really are trying to do their jobs and help you but they are being treated just as disrespectedly as you are. We get placed in jobs that we were not trained for and expected to meet all standards. (Training and schooling costs to much.) Like everything else, it all comes to big business.


Thought you all might be interested.
Kittie Chaos

Thursday, September 4, 2008

Political Frustrational opinion

I haven't done this before, but my buddy Malicious Intent has been "after me" to post so we can bitch back and forth at each other. I guess until now I just haven't felt strongly enough about anything to have the emotion or conviction to write anything more than comments. I know this can be just a fun thing and probably will be, but this is something I really feel strongly about and felt I needed to open my mouth (fingers) about this.
I'm an RN and a mom of 2 ADHD kids, an autistic (they are all adults), and an autistic grand daughter that lost her eye to retinoblastoma at 15 months and went through 2 years of cancer treatment. We have custody of her and she is doing great. She is almost 8 now. I have some medical problems myself and life right now is rather a struggle. Even worse and of concern to all of us. We have a country going to hell in a hand basket.
Our economy is in shambles and is only getting worse. Our gas prices are so high people can't afford to drive to work, food is too expensive to feed your family. Vacations? Hell they are totally out of the question. The political parties are at all time polarity with differences in beliefs. This may actually be a good thing, but I do feel as though that if the Republican party is successful in their goals there will no longer be any type of "class system" or family left in this country and there will only be the very rich and the very poor. Unfortunately most of us will be among the very poor.

I am medical professional and have been hearing a rumor within the medical community of a "plan" to tax every one's medical benefits. It has been written up in several journals but we all thought that it was so ridiculous it couldn't be more than just a rumor. Well I guess it is more than a rumor now. It has been brought to my attention that McCain's tax plan intends to increase each deduction for a child to $7000 each year. Well maybe that would be OK, but truthfully as a parent of special needs children even that isn't sufficient when in the lower or mid middle class. The biggest and most disturbing plan is to tax all medical benefits that you receive at when you are doing your best to provide for your family by working. The intent is all that your employer pays for your insurance will be taxed as income and on top of that, all the insurance claims that are payed by your insurance for your medical care will also be taxed as income. Meaning if you are unfortunate enough to have medical claims that are paid by insurance the total paid to your Dr. or hospital will also be taxed. So not only if you are unfortunate enough to have an illness and not get paid sufficient sick time,or ir any at all, even what your insurance pays will be considered income as if it were paid to YOU. If you are cursed enough to have cancer and your insurance pays $300,000 to your doctors and hospitals, you will be taxed as if you received that as payment for work. Now this has already begun to be implemented in part by the IRS. At the beginning of the year they began to be tax employees for any meals, cell phone access, or mileage payment as income as a dollar amount. I know this for a fact because we have meals available where I work and we are taxed on $4 a day as additional income. I mean I can handle that how after all how much can that be. I'd spend alot more going out to lunch. But medical benefits??? Not only will you be fighting for your life, you will be penalized for being "stupid" or unlucky enough to become ill, you might as well forget the insurance cause you might be better off without it. How is that fair?

Also planned by McCain Social security which our elderly have paid for their entire lives and the money that they paid has been taken and used for many other purposes including Bush's war, than what it was intended, will most certainly be discontinued. So our parents and grand parents will no longer have any income which they have paid for unless they were lucky enough to have a company pent ion. Truthfully there aren't many who do. Medicare will be almost definitely eliminated or reduced enough for it to be ineffective to keep our aged alive and well. They are already paying a minimum to nursing homes and doctors to the point that less and less physicians are even accepting medicare as payment and nursing homes are not being paid what it costs to care for our elderly to be cared for. (Don't believe the statement that medical professionals are paid more than they are worth. I haven't had a cost of living raise in more than 5 years, believe me they aren't getting what you think.) Medicaid has frozen payment to facilities and physicians for the last 5 years and payment is not actually based on cost but on what the government thinks they should pay or on what the cost was 5 years ago. With inflation being what it is costs are increasing and far from being frozen, costs are rising at an all time high.
Come on America is this really what is best for us?? It sure as hell isn't what my family needs or where my husband or father were proud to say they fought for. Maybe Obama isn't the best choice and maybe Biden isn't either, but it sure as fuck isn't the Republican party that is the solution. That will only be our downfall!!!